Boulder WOW

Last night was fantastic, the boulder leadership team had a meeting at PG's house last night,

I am so excited about where boulder is going in the next year, we had loads off idea's and things that we wanted to do.


i feel that God is telling em todo this not only because i will become closer with him, but also because off the jounrney that he wants me to go on.

and next week is GOING TO BE AMAZING

Monday --- Rock Solid meeting
Tuesday --- Causewar Deep Meeting
Wednesday--- in chelmsford with katie
Thurs -- Rock Solid and Boulder
Friday i am off to Turkey


WOW bring on the weekend

O yea and almost forgot 72 HOURS DRY NO ALCOHOL

Spiritual attacks Parrt 2

Today i am feeling rubbish, i just feel like i am gettign attacked on all sides, at lunch today i so nearly went to the pub and had a drink.

i knew it woudl be hard but its been less than 3 days and i am already needing alcohol.

And to rub salt in the wound, work today has been utter trash, we are short staffed and some off the people who are her just cant be bothered to work.

i really dont know how i am going to do this

spiritual attacks

Today i was hoping was going to be as good as yesterday.

yesterday i gave all my alcohol to katie, but when i got in my car this morning ther was a 4 pack of cider on my front seat ( as wierd as that may sound, but i knew i had no can in my car last night). i realised that the enemy is going to be trying as hard as anything to stop me doing this.

through out today i have been having negative thoughts put in my head:

i am not good enough
i am rubbish at my job
i am not welcome in the church
or any off the church related groups

and the worst on is that i am not worthy off Gods Love.

but still God is standing by me and i have been dry for 48 hours. only 2 days but it is a start

i realised tonight that the "enemy" is going to be everywhere just looking for me to show a sign off weakness and when i do he is going to use it and start putting negative thoughts in my head again.



i came into my bedroom tonight and it was really cold compaired to the rest off the house, and it had a bad feeling so i am constantly praying for protection and safety tonight.

I feel that i am taking slow progress, but it is better than none

a friends blog

Quoted from a spokesperson- ' i use god as a last resort' i think we can all be claimed guilty off this at some point! And i can honestly say i have done and still do! i know he is right and has the answer! yet i fight it on my own first and turn to him when i truly can't do it anymore! Future try to turn to the Lord first and let him in to help you! :)

I was readign a friends blog and read this passage and it it spot on, we are all guilty off it and try to manage through things and when we realise we cant, we Turn to God as our last resort

WOW WOW WOW amazing things happen ay 2am

I had an amazing moment last night at 2am, i was laying in my bed a 2am this morning when suddenly my room was filled with a blinding light and i heard a voice saying" Stuart you can do this for i am with you always, i believe in you"

the only bad thing is that i could not sleep after that.


I am ready for what is going to be a tuff hard journey. BUT I CAN COPE WITH ANYTHING WITH THE BACKING OFF FRIENDS AND THE SUPPORT OF GOD

I realised something today

I realised something while i was at work today ( yes while is was working), there is no way that i can ever manage this alone, I need support of my friends and most important thing is that even with the support of my friends i cant do it with the influence of God.

Tommorow will be a hard day i am getting rid off all Alcohol in my fridge upstairs, my body is going to hate me for it but it is something that i have to do for me to stand any chance off managing it

Starting a new journey

Hey all this is my first blog, in what is going to be updated through out my new journey off giving up drinking and going T-Total